Sunday, July 18, 2010

The Trauma Queen is Traumatized

PA Midwife is one of my hats. You have not heard from me in a while for good reason: THE 2 CAESARS WERE BORN!

Here is my blog entry from 6-25-10

Otto meets Amazon Woman

A woman could lift a car off her baby if she had too. Faith proved it yesterday.

Who is to know what is really in there when you are pregnant for the first time? Intellectually you think there is a baby in there, but until you see it it is not real. Faith labored at home for 2 days, she stuck with it, believing that she must sacrifice for her unknown child. Taking walks in the starlight, breathing, relaxing. There came a time at the end of the second day when we knew that her baby was not moving down, so we made our way off our ranch to the hospital (they live on our land). Warmest of receptions and Pablo our OB/GYN tried his incredible tricks and through it all Faith stayed true, through her exhaustion, she gave it more than you think is humanly possible. Then a cesarean, to the joy of our 9 pound Otto taking his first breathes. Faith never once complained. I am in awe of this woman. Thank you Thank you for allowing me to witness your beauty, love and strength. Oh yes and Otto has our gentle loving soul Orion for his dad.

Back to 7-17-10

Okay so I was up for 2 days with Faith and trying to juggle my full time job which I ended up flaking out of on Otto’s Birthday. The process that we shared for Otto’s birth was beautiful and traumatic. There was much to process, the processing is very hard work. I was wasted.

Just when I was getting my feet on the ground my beloved daughter Robyn went into labor with her first child, 3 days before her due date. When it rains it pours. Robyn planned a natural birth in the hospital, so she came to me since I happened to be working. Things were going great until they discovered that the baby had changed position during the night to head up, and she stuck her foot through the cervix! 6-28-10 my fabulous squeaky little 7 lb. grand daughter was born by cesarean. Her parents are George and Robyn so therefore her name is Geordyn. We love her so much, but wonder, “What was she thinking?”

Of course we are so in love with our 2 Caesars. My life has been full to overflowing with helping Robyn and her new family, maintaining my job, garden, marriage, organizing our huge August 21 Music Festival for the orphanage and planning my return to Haiti. I confess, my life is insane!

I am proud to say that today I laid on my bed and read parts of a book called Sabbath, it is about “finding rest, renewal and delight in our busy lives”. Seeking quietness, slowing to rest, giving thanks, praying, lighting candles, making love.

Pictures: Faith hanging in there with a contraction, Otto and Pablo before the first breath, Geordyn